No day of my life has passed that has not
Proved me guilty in your sight
The best I have to offer are these filthy rags
And yet you love me
All things in me call for my rejection
All things in You plead my acceptance
I am guilty but pardoned, by grace I’ve been set free
I am ransomed through the blood you shed for me
I was dead in my transgressions, but life you brought to me
I am reconciled through mercy
To the cross I cling
No more am I a slave to sin
But bought with a price
Redemption that was purchased through the blessed cross
that You bore for me
-“To the Cross I Cling,” The Village Church
About a year and a half ago, I found myself in a season where I fell asleep to this song on repeat every night. Recently, after my miscarriage, I have been going back to this song by Sandra McCracken and it’s beautiful lyrics as a source of comfort. In the midst of suffering and questions about God’s sovereign, loving care for me, I know that I can find shelter in Him.
In the arms of a good Father
You can go to the deep water
Where the questions, we have left unspoken
Come out in the open
We will find shelter here
So I lay down, what I cannot hold in my hands
Every sorrow and hope spinning out of control
And here I find sweet resolution comes in letting go
And we will find shelter here
When I look back I can see,
And when I am old I’ll remember these things
Like a mountain of stone
And the longing that makes me believe…
There is a tree by the blue river
Where the shade stretches wide over
In this breaking we are hand and glove
Come with me my love
We will find shelter here
We will find shelter here…
Happy Fall! Driving along streets with multi-colored leaves and windows down with a jacket and listening to Joe Purdy are some of my favorite things. Here is my favorite song to drive to of all time and it’s perfect for the next few fall months. Put it on your next mixed cd and enjoy….and if you get to listen to it as you drive to and from Oxford, you are the blessed ones.
UPDATE: I’m tired. I am extremely overwhelmed with the size of my plate this season, yet can not do anything to make it lighter. I am serving tables on top of teaching 40 hours a week without pay. I am trying to plan a wedding without becoming apathetic toward napkin folds and shower gifts. I am seeking to teach exceptionally well, with creativity and control, but have no idea what I’m doing. I have to figure out how you get a cap and gown…? I need to start pursuing teaching jobs and putting together resumes and portfolios. I want to be learning how to love my future husband well. I started leading a new community group I barely have time to attend. I have a bible study I feel ill-prepared to teach. And the list goes on…
Basically, I have voices and tasks coming at me from every angle and I have nowhere to run for reprieve. I feel like I’m failing in every corner of my life. Whom have I in Heaven and on Earth? I need Jesus: our great intercessor. He takes our worthless name and engraves it on his hands. The law says, “do this.” The gospel of Christ says, “it is finished.” Praise Jesus who commends us to God! This song by Brooks Ritter sums up the cry of my heart.
“Chief of all my joys
Sovereign of my heart
Whom have I in heaven but You?
My heart may fail
But you are my strength
Whom have I in Heaven but You?”
Thank you Sojourn Music. Check it out.
Come, thou long expected Jesus,
born to set thy people free;
from our fears and sins release us, let us find our rest in thee.
Israel’s strength and consolation, hope of all the earth thou art;
dear desire of every nation, joy of every longing heart.
Born thy people to deliver,
born a child and yet a King,
born to reign in us forever,
now thy gracious kingdom bring.
By thine own eternal spirit rule in all our hearts alone;
by thine all sufficient merit, raise us to thy glorious throne.
Come, thou long awaited Emmanuel.
This is refreshing. Enjoy.
This song has been on repeat in my car for the past few days. Its called, All I Have is Christ, by Justin Taylor of Sovereign Grace Ministries. We sang it at the Desiring God conference last weekend and its been stirring my affections for Jesus since. Be blessed by it.
“I once was lost in darkest night
Yet thought I knew the way.
The sin that promised joy and life
Had led me to the grave.
I had no hope that You would own
A rebel to Your will.
And if You had not loved me first
I would refuse You still.
But as I ran my hell-bound race
Indifferent to the cost
You looked upon my helpless state
And led me to the cross.
And I beheld God’s love displayed
You suffered in my place
You bore the wrath reserved for me
Now all I know is grace.
Hallelujah! All I have is Christ
Hallelujah! Jesus is my life
Now, Lord, I would be Yours alone
And live so all might see
The strength to follow Your commands
Could never come from me.
Oh Father, use my ransomed life
In any way You choose.
And let my song forever be
My only boast is You.
Hallelujah! All I have is Christ
Hallelujah! Jesus is my life”
Love that will not betray you, dismay or enslave you,
It will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be.
There is a design,
An alignment to cry,
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be.
(Mumford and Sons)
Tomorrow my dear friends get married. I’m really excited to watch them experience the gospel through each other. Yeah for celebrating!
I Asked The Lord
I asked the Lord that I might grow, In faith and love and every grace
Might more of His salvation know, And seek more earnestly His face
Twas He who taught me thus to pray, And He I trust has answered prayer
But it has been in such a way, As almost drove me to despair
I hoped that in some favored hour, At once He’d answer my request
And by His love’s constraining power, Subdue my sins and give me rest
Instead of this He made me feel, The hidden evils of my heart
And let the angry powers of Hell, Assault my soul in every part
Yea more with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Cast out my feelings, laid me low
Lord why is this, I trembling cried
Wilt Thou pursue thy worm to death?
“Tis in this way” The Lord replied
“I answer prayer for grace and faith”
“These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free
And break thy schemes of earthly joy
That thou mayest seek thy all in me,
That thou mayest seek thy all in me.”
My friend Emily Weller sent these lyrics to me today. I am thankful for her prayers in this season. As she continuously reminds me, I remind you- “The Lord is good and does good.” He is for us, Church.